I had a dream last night, a very vivid one in fact. I dreamt that I was looking at myself in the mirror, and my hair continued to get longer and darker as I brushed it. It became fuller...and in that mirror I saw myself as possibly others have seen me, but what I was never able to see. This may sound narcissistic...but it's not meant that way at all. I was finally able to see my own beauty while looking at my changing reflection there.I saw myself become someone to be admired...a genuinely good person.
For whatever reason I have never been able or allowed myself to see this...but after a conversation I had last night with my man...I guess it came through my subconscious.
I need to stop seeing all of the negative in everything...I just don't know how. I've got a book that might help me with obsessive thought patterns, of which I am all too familiar.
I'm so tired of feeling this way...feeling like every day is a struggle...logically I shouldn't feel this way, and I know this. I'm just so damned tired of fighting these old demons.
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